No, this is not about revenge. This is about eyes, and sensitivity to light, and headaches.
I’ve spent the last two days curled up in bed, eyes closed, trying to avoid every hint of light I could – which, really, means sleeping most of the time. Even now, I’m wearing sunglasses in my room which just has a desk lamp on, in order to try to avoid the stabbing pain behind my left eye, which I’ve been experiencing since sometime between going to sleep Tuesday night and waking up Wednesday morning.
Tuesday night, Mom and I had a meeting, and I forgot to take my sunglasses with me when we left. Lights everywhere. Street lights, car lights, window lights in houses, house lights…. We both suspect this is partially the cause of the pain, because:
Light hurts. I don’t know if neurotypicals can understand this. It’s not a sensation like, “I’ve scraped my arm”, or “I’ve sprained my ankle”, or “I’ve dislocated my kneecap” (yes, I’ve done all three – the kneecap thing is a weakness in my maternal family). It’s… I don’t know exactly how to describe it. It’s like high-pitched noise to a migraine sufferer. Or… actually, I think I have it – it’s almost like nails on a chalkboard – or claws on a chalkboard, even. That sensation that goes right past the physical body into your mind. Well, “claws on a chalkboard” pretty much describes how normal, everyday light – like, oh, the light of the sun, or of those energy saving bulbs – feels. Now, imagine that contrasted to the silence of a library, and you might have some idea of how I feel outside at night. Car headlights, street lights, traffic lights – all of them so much brighter than they are during the day, because of the contrast of darkness, and all shoving their way into my brain past my holed filters. Not Fun.
If I spend too much time in the presence of lights / bright lights / blinking lights (the latter two of which reduce the length of time of my tolerance) I have to get out of there and to someplace dark. Most of the time, that’s my room.
–from my post ASD Behaviours and Traits
Yeah. As the quote says, Not Fun.
So, I woke up Wednesday morning with a stabbing pain descending from my left temple (next to my eyebrow) diagonally to just behind my left eye (about where the optic nerve starts, I think). I was also experiencing pain going around my eye from the top centre, around the left side (aka outside) and along the bottom to about between the centre and right side. (And I’m still experiencing it.)
I was debating going to Emerg yesterday (Thursday) morning, but Mom pointed out that I’ve got an appointment with my doctor this morning for a variety of other things, so I’ll wait until I’ve seen her and get what she thinks.
This is very much Not Fun, and I can’t remember if I’ve ever experienced something this direct before. Usually my headaches are more general pain, maybe one side only, but not located in such a specific place. (Yes, I’ve had sinus headaches, but even then the pain is somewhat spread out. This is very specifically placed pain.)
Anyway, has anyone else experienced something like this?